Rain's Memories, Personalities and all the other E's Inbetweens

I am sitting wrapped in blankets so I can have my balcony door open. It is cold and wet outside so the sound of the rain is an exciting and mysterious feeling. Just like smells and music can jog your memory, so weather can do for me. I have this conflict of emotion every time it rains. Half of me remembers a bitter past and the other half loves the seclusivity of it. I am an introvert on most days and most days I love to recharge alone. When I am in public or with those closest to me, you would think me an extrovert. But rain allows the hiding my soul craves. It enforces staying inside, hiding in baggy warm clothing, bundling up your arms and your heart in shelter of the rain. Rain can be taken few ways and for me rain resembles God's downpour of blessing AND seasons of hiding. The seasons in my life of hiding I can say they needed to happen to get me where I am now, so in a sense I acknowledge it with thankfulness. But the skeletons never leave the memory and I am in the limbo that emotion seems to always affect.

The seasons of God's downpour are like how the rain covers the ground. I searched scripture for the word rain and it is unavoidable to see the imagery.

"I will send you rain in its season, and the ground will yield its crops and the trees their fruit." Leviticus 26:4

"Let my teaching fall like rain and my words descend like dew, like showers on new grass, like abundant rain on tender plants." Dueteronomy 32:2

"May he be like rain falling on a mown field, like showers watering the earth." Psalm 72:6

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth

and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it." Isaiah 55:9-11

"Let us acknowledge the LORD; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth.” Hosea 6:3

"He has shown kindness by giving you rain from heaven and crops in their seasons; he provides you with plenty of food and fills your hearts with joy." Acts 14:17

"Be patient, then, brothers and sisters, until the Lord’s coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop, patiently waiting for the autumn and spring rains." James 5:7

I guess now the question to ask is what is the rain today?

Looks like you'll have to keep reading :)