Remember

I was just sitting in my living room feeling sorry for myself thinking of how blessed I was when He whispered to me this blog topic. It is so important to me to be near a computer when an idea hits because if I fail to seize it at it's inception, it will never appear anywhere but in my dreams. I was actually looking at my furniture, sulking in the fact that I was alone and there was no one to sit on my lovely green sofa with me when I remembered. I remembered how my roommates came together at the last minute. I remember how my job came through at the perfect moment. I remember how moving here and graduating and having funds to pay for school came in and told stories of His perfect love and of course His perfect timing. But it is so easy to forget. It is too easy to wander. Then it started playing.

O to grace how great a debtor daily I’m constrained to be!

Let Thy goodness, like a fetter bind my wandering heart to Thee.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, prone to leave the God I love;

Here’s my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above.

It's sad to say but wandering is far too easy for me. So is double mindedness. I forget how He came through for me. I forget how He provides. I forget how He whispers His love over me. I sometimes even forget Him.  I begin to feel as if He is not there for me and that I am forgotten. That I am last on His agenda for greatness and to be honest I don't feel as if I deserve to be on any agenda. You see, in my wandering life is all about me. About my misfortune and how unfaithful I am. I tend to focus more on my lack than on His love.

And then He tells us to remember. He remembers we are from dust and knows wandering comes easy so He tells us to remember.

So my spirit grows faint within me; 

   my heart within me is dismayed. 

I remember the days of long ago; 

   I meditate on all your works 

   and consider what your hands have done. 

I spread out my hands to you; 

   I thirst for you like a parched land. Ps 143:4-6

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Glorious and majestic are his deeds, 

   and his righteousness endures forever. 

He has caused his wonders to be remembered; 

   the LORD is gracious and compassionate. 

He provides food for those who fear him; 

   he remembers his covenant forever. Ps 111:3-5

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Praise the LORD, my soul; 

   all my inmost being, praise his holy name. 

 Praise the LORD, my soul, 

   and forget not all his benefits— 

 who forgives all your sins 

   and heals all your diseases, 

 who redeems your life from the pit 

   and crowns you with love and compassion, 

 who satisfies your desires with good things 

   so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

The LORD works righteousness 

   and justice for all the oppressed.

He made known his ways to Moses, 

   his deeds to the people of Israel: 

 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, 

   slow to anger, abounding in love. 

 He will not always accuse, 

   nor will he harbor his anger forever; 

he does not treat us as our sins deserve 

   or repay us according to our iniquities. 

For as high as the heavens are above the earth, 

   so great is his love for those who fear him; 

as far as the east is from the west, 

   so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

As a father has compassion on his children, 

   so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; 

for he knows how we are formed, 

   he remembers that we are dust. 

The life of mortals is like grass, 

   they flourish like a flower of the field; 

the wind blows over it and it is gone, 

   and its place remembers it no more. 

But from everlasting to everlasting 

   the LORD’s love is with those who fear him, 

   and his righteousness with their children’s children—    

with those who keep his covenant 

   and remember to obey his precepts.

The LORD has established his throne in heaven, 

   and his kingdom rules over all.

Praise the LORD, you his angels, 

   you mighty ones who do his bidding, 

   who obey his word. 

Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts, 

   you his servants who do his will. 

Praise the LORD, all his works 

   everywhere in his dominion.

Praise the LORD, my soul.  Psalm 103.

He knows we forget. He knows we are from dust. He knows that we wander, and yet His love abounds. He teaches us to remember what He does so that we wander less. That our faith abounds. 

Never forget what He does. Remember.